A friend of mine sent this to me in a text last night and I feel like it really is a good quote of where I am right now. Just thought I would share :)
Today is New Year's Eve, the day you are supposed to celebrate the end of one year and the beginning of another. Most years, I don't understand why people celebrate it so much. One year, on to the next. No big deal. This year, however, I feel like I have a lot to celebrate.
2012 started out rough. I thought I had everything I wanted. The career, the guy, the nice apartment, talks of marriage and the dog. As the months went by, I just felt like something was missing. If I have everything I thought I wanted, then why was I so miserable? It took a few months into the 2012 for me to realize what I was missing.
Sounds so small, yet, without happiness, whats the point of life? Once I realized what I was missing in my life, I started making small changes in order to find my happiness. I started by getting a new job, a job that I completely love. My new job made me happier, but it didn't solve the problem. I then adopted a new puppy, Mia, who I am completely in love with.
These changes helped, but didn't solve my problem. The number one contributor to my unhappiness was the toxic relationship I was in. I lost who I was and forgot what I deserved. Making the decision to leave the relationship was unbelievably difficult, yet it was the best decision I have ever made. Although I wanted out, its never easy to do.
I remember when he moved out of my apartment, I felt lost and had to sleep at my Mom's house for a bit. He was my identity, without him, I didn't know who I was. But, for the first time in over a year, I felt like I could finally just breathe.
It was a new beginning for me. The stressful part was over, just had to focus on rebuilding myself. Soon after, I bought a new car and started dating again. Still, something was missing.
It wasn't until I started exercising that I really felt like I found my happiness. Exercising taught me that I am a very strong woman. I am independent, hard working, determined and finally - I am happy.
2012 has been a crazy year and has turned out to be better than I ever could have dreamed. I feel like I know more about myself than I ever have, I know what I deserve in a relationship now and have learned how important it is never to settle or cut yourself short. I feel like I have clear goals - career goals, fitness goals and relationship goals. Now that I know what I want and what I deserve, its easier to go out and get those things. I have lost over 25 lbs and really good about myself. Can't wait to lose even more and tone up in 2013.
Today, on the last day of 2012, I lifted over 100 lbs on each leg lift I did. Back in October, I was barely able to lift 50 lbs. Just like the quote above, I am nowhere near where I want to be, but I am sure as hell closer than I was last New Year's Eve.
I am entering 2013 HAPPY - and that is something to be proud of :)
Wishing you all a HAPPY New Year's Eve! Cheers!